look who's talking!

2009-07-15T00:16:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry that i moved again.
http://ryung-ppagi.livejournal.com
that journal used to be my obsession rants about suju.
school journals will be locked. :)

Family warmth.

2009-06-16T20:16:00.004+08:00

Ah ma is in hospital for her full body check up. Our family has been taking turns to visit her, because of the restrictions of H1N1. So bloody annoying.

Ah ma is getting better each day. :) I heard stories of those who went to see her that she grumble quite a number of times because she cannot eat (need to do scannings). And she was telling her "neighbour" who refuses to eat that she should be lucky that she can eat while ah ma only can drink water. Haha! There is also one incident where she secretly laughed at her neighbour. I can't remember what happened. But it always makes me want to laugh, as my ah ma is so cute with her actions. Although she is cute with actions, she is as stubborn as any old person who refuses to see doctor when they are sick.

I know my grandma is a strong woman and she will get well fast. She and ah yi took care of almost all the grandchildren of the family. :)

2009-06-01T01:05:00.002+08:00

honestly, i don't feel comfortable at work (events).
i feel pretty much at home if i am working at a theatre. :)
because i roughly know what is going on.
maybe i am just scared to be alone.
well, i just need to overcome that.

what have i been doing during these two weeks?

2009-05-29T23:57:00.004+08:00

washing my laundry, watching family outing and bof (which i stopped halfway because i was too busy with my classes), eating non-stop, and found a job to help someone design their websites and organise her life. :D and, i almost win 4D. i told my parents, as long as i win the first three prizes, i straightaway buy a ticket and go to melbourne and irritate korkor. :D that's all. back to f.o.

oh, watch this! when mrbrown meets swine flu and wondergirls.

Solo Fright.

2009-05-22T18:27:00.002+08:00

Two months of holiday will go by very quickly. Soon, I will be doing my Solo Flight, solo performance. I have thought a long while about what my Solo Flight would be all about. My initial idea was to do a comedy sketch like Mr. Bean.

After speaking to the head of theatre, she opened my views and ideas. I decided on doing a play about samsui women. The story will be fictional facts, what I mean is that I take different life stories of these samsui women and create a story of the life of a samsui woman. Plus, I had plans to use Cantonese in my play (which will be a huge challenge for me).

Just when I am happy with my Solo Flight plans, my friend approached and asked me if I wanted to do a duo flight with her. As much as I want to do a duo flight with her because I have a huge fear of performing alone on stage, I also want to challenge myself to perform on stage alone.

I am confused now. Should I overcome my fear or do a comedy duo with my friend? I don't know... I hate this feeling when I need to choose.

Importance of Knowing Your Dialect.

2009-05-21T20:32:00.003+08:00

3rd day in Taiwan. I was at Xi Men shopping. I walked into this store which sells cheap tee shirts by two aunties. I overheard them conversing in Hokkien, and I asked them if they are speaking Hokkien. It is a dumb question I know. But after that, I felt so at-my-grandma's-house. I spoke to them in broken Hokkien and they were pretty happy and give me discounts for my tee shirts! Although their Hokkien is a bit weird, I still managed to catch what they are saying. :)

It was the 5th day in Taiwan. We went back to Dan Shui to get salted egg biscuits. Instead of seeing the Dan Shui we saw on our 2nd day, a wet market greeted us. My dad and mum were telling me how back in the 1960s, the markets were like how they were in Dan Shui. Not clean. Not pretty. Very noisy. I was definitely fascinated by the wet market and started snapping away. At a pork store where I was shooting all the internal organs of a pig, the seller greeted me in japanese. I ignored him, because I thought he was talking to someone else. A lady beside him said, "Mai chap ee. Ji pun lang ai hip xiong." I started smiling to myself, because I understood them.

To conclude, I am glad that my grandma and ah yi took care of me when I was younger. As they speak to me only in Hokkien, maybe a little of Chinese, it has made me learn my dialect. :) It is a pity that my Cantonese is not as strong as my Hokkien. :(

taiwan!!

2009-05-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

Currently in Taiwan now, enjoying the cool weather. I thought it would as hot as Singapore, but it isn't that bad. :D The hotel we are staying at is pretty awesome, have breakfast every morning, and the room is pretty decent. We went to alot of places, shoot alot of pictures (which will be updated tomorrow or later), ate alot of food, done loads of sightseeing and shopping! Sorry, korkor, cannot find your shoe, they only have spectum bounce or mega bounce and they tried to bluff me that the shoe was microbounce. -_- I was telling my mother that I must make use of the internet! Hehe! Got to go, need to pack! Will update tomorrow, if not the day after! :)

happy umma's day!

2009-05-09T18:41:00.004+08:00

The cake from my brother and Xinlian came! Awfully Chocolate Chocolate Banana Cake! And 1 pint of super-shiok ice-cream! :D We decided to have the cake for tea. My mum likes it, because it is not so sweet. But my dad prefers the all-chocolate one, because it is sweeter. Daddy, old already, cannot eat so much sweet stuff. I better finish the ice-cream before my dad does! Wee..

Anyways, pictures of the day.
I personally love this picture of my mum laughing.

My mummy looks like a little kid here!

I asked my dad to take a picture with my mum. He was complaining that he was half-naked and he doesn't want to take, while changing into a tee-shirt.
Mum waiting for Dad.

My dad being cheeky! :D

My mum just couldn't stop laughing. More like she is shy! :)

Mum cuts the cake! YAY!

The cake was awesome, but a bit too big for three mouths! :D
Oh I forgot... Daddy can eat plenty of sweet treats! :)

You know... I am very blessed to be in this family. If not for my mother's love for my father and my father's strong will to live, my brother and I might not be here. :) They are a couple who definitely went through a lot. :) I love them. I love them for bringing me into this world. I love them for nurturing me into what I am today. I love my parents, the old people in my home. :)

My family means a lot to me.

2009-05-08T05:58:00.003+08:00

i watched table of glory, and i found this statement very true, (not very exact, but the meaning is there.) "you made me remember the joy that i have when i used to play table tennis. because when you start doing it professionally, it doesn't make you happy anymore, but you still want to do it." that sums up how much i feel towards acting when i begin my semesters two. but last night, i found a slight joy again, how everyone worked together, how much i love to be on stage in the light. how i love the feeling that people are watching me and that i cannot screw up. :) the feeling when my heart pumps faster and faster until when i stepped out on stage, you become a different person. just like playing a sport, you get super nervous before a game, but when you are on the battlefield, you are a different person, you used all your abilities to beat your opponents.

i love acting, although i don't enjoy it as much as i used to.

tomorrow is my last repertoire scene/performance.

2009-05-06T23:29:00.004+08:00

as much as others want to do well, i keep getting negative vibes from my co-actors that i shouldn't do what i suggested. it is as if i am stealing their precious limelight. i am sorry, but what 'b' told me is very much true. "everyone wants to shine, i want to shine, you want to shine. so, you have work doubly hard on your character work to show that you are shining. then if everyone works hard, they would shine." and i agree with her, because i always remember her characters. i have worked hard for this sems, because i screwed up my previous sems. i really want to do well for my last year two show before i move into my third year which will be more taxing in my small brain. now that i am putting extra effort into my character, i am getting dirty looks from you guys. it is so funny how you guys want me to give more emotions to you. i have given you, and you are not happy, reason being is that i have given too much.

god, what the hell am i supposed to do?!

2009-05-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

i just dont get some people. argh.
i hate this. i need a break away from those people.

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i have changed. you have changed.
we all changed.
because of this whole splitting business, our friendship has turned sour.
honestly, as much as i miss those times we were together, i am glad that things turned out this way. because i have changed. i have caused things to be this way, because i am someone who lets go, rather than to give a chance.
you regarded me as your best friend, but sorry to say, i don't. i couldn't. yes, i am slipping this friendship away, because i want to, and from the way i see things, you rather hang out with her than me.
that's why i have tried to stop working with you in group work.
it is impossible.
our views have changed.
and when i am with you, i always feel awkward.
sorry.

2009-05-02T02:51:00.000+08:00

blue cheese scared me.

red hawk.

2009-04-27T22:30:00.002+08:00

I watch Red Hawk by the MD graduating students in my school.

I understood why the previous director wanted them to scold hokkien vulgarities, because the play was written by a Singaporean (i think). And it has a Singaporean feel to it. Gang fights in the 1960s. It was pretty funny to hear the MD students speaking Hokkien. :D Almost the same as angmohs speaking chinese in di yi sheng.

AND, I can't believe why I never open my eyes bigger and wash my eyes earlier!
But china men and korean men are almost the same. All are male chauvinistic. They can't stand if women are better than them. This reminds me... one of my male classmates in school said that I hit like a man. Then I told him if you have a brother like mine, you would understand why I hit like a man. :D

I can't wait for my repertoire scenes. :D
I want to be on stage. :)

kissing you.

2009-04-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

I was searching for sound effects for my chinese play,
and I found this beautiful song from Romeo & Juliet soundtrack.

:D
I have been into ballads or instrumentals lately.

I dream a dream.

2009-04-18T19:13:00.006+08:00

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

I saw this on Xinlian's blog and Soompi.
Watched it.
My first impression of her, "Wow, she looks like a man (because of her eyebrows)."
And I am ashamed at myself for thinking of her this way.
But the minute she sang, everything weird looking turned beautiful.
May God bless her dream that she always dreamt of. :)

I really love her voice.
It gives me goosebumps.
And I can't seem to tear a bit each time I watch the video.

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This video made me think really hard about why do I want to act on stage. You need the courage and the character to stand on stage to make everyone remember you. It doesn't matter whether you are ugly or pretty. As long as you have worked hard to be on stage, you would eventually have the courage and character for everyone to remember. So, I shouldn't fear Solo Flight and have fun. That's what being on stage is all about. Having fun with what you have worked hard for.

:)

:)

2009-04-16T22:36:00.004+08:00

Stressed.
I know I need to work hard.
Because when I do, I know I have no worries.
Starting now.
Three more weeks.
Holiday.
Then, FINAL year. :)
Wait, Solo Flight first.
Shucks.

Oh, and I hate being so organised,
because I get the shitty jobs, like the class rep.
Shit.

I need a break!
I want to fly to Australia this holiday.
I wish I can go to Taiwan. :(

my usual mood swing days are back! yay.

2009-04-09T23:00:00.008+08:00

i am amazed at myself today.
i went to school, feeling feverish.
normally, i would take mc for the day.
but i forced my heavy head out of the bed,
because of claire devine.
she somehow makes me rekindle my love for acting. :)

i came back home having a fever and bad flu.
and i got scolded for falling sick and sleeping late every night, when actually i have been sleeping before 12 the past two weeks (it is considered quite good for me especially when i have such a heavy workload now: never-ending assignments.)
i have learnt to keep quiet at such situations and try not to say anything.
then again, that's how my folks care; by scolding. that's good enough, although i don't like it.

my weekends are burnt.
don't try preaching on me now, because i am not in a very good mood.
pms.

Family.

2009-04-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

"In the end, it's these small things that you remember, the little imperfections that make them perfect for you."

An advertisment in Singapore that is so touching and beautiful. :)

boys.

2009-04-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

woo. SJ won their 2nd mutizen! :)
I cut my fringe. Well, I actually got tired on my long fringe that irritates me almost every single day. I decided to snip all off on Saturday. :) Free and easy. My mum thinks I look like a china woman, while my dad thinks I look damn retro. If you wonder what kind of fringe I cut, it is sort of a bowl cut fringe. It makes my face look extra round. Oh well, I was thinking of getting a new look. Now, I just need thick-framed glasses to make me look like a nerd.

The stress in school is slowly piling up on me. Also the thought of needing to stay back almost everyday after school because of the graduation shows can kill me instantly. But I always believe that I will have the strength to go through this stressful period because God is there. He is always there. :)

believe in him.

2009-04-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

quote of the day,
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." - Mother Teresa.

One more month to my next performance.

little bit.

2009-03-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

I went for mass yesterday, and God assured me again. The homily was about accepting God's will. And what I went through on Friday relates to the homily. :) Anyways, today is Qing Ming Jie, my mother's side of the family went to "clean tomb and put flowers". After putting flowers for my ah gong, I told my mother that from far anyone can tell which one is ah gong's tomb because of the amount of flowers. Hahaha. Oh, and I saw how my great-grandma looks like, just like my grandma but with smaller eyes.

The mood became very sad when we went to see my 2nd uncle's tomb, because my grandma started crying out his name. Well at least, my grandma is showing her grief, rather than bottling up in her. I believe that he is at a better place now. I will never forget him. He is my 4D uncle, always ready at 7 to copy 4D results for everyone. :)

God has His reasons.

2009-03-28T13:04:00.002+08:00

I always believe God has His reasons for planning my life out this way. :)
I must have faith in Him.

13 times the power.

2009-03-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

This post will be in fangirly mode. If you want to carry on reading, go ahead.

Three comebacks. KBS Music Banks, MBS Music Core, SBS Inkigayo. My heart "died" three times. That's how great Suju's comebacks are. I remember coming across an article saying Suju is the Asia's Greatest Idol Group. I agree to that statement. One thing missing in the comebacks is Kibum. :( I miss KiHae's moments, especially during Marry U period. :)

I love it when the 13 are together. Kibum, hurry come back! :)

KBS MUSIC BANKS - Waiting Room + Why I Like You

KBS MUSIC BANKS - Sorry Sorry
Shindong, the chubby dancer, never fails to surprise me with his dancing. And I think he has lost his fats to Kangin. Kangin is getting chubbier. :) AND I LOVE DONGHAE'S ENTRANCE. Hey gir gir gir gir gir girl.

love leader-ssi in Music Core. Wooo.
Their comebacks are the best. :)

RAINBOW! :)

2009-03-14T12:05:00.004+08:00

I baked "Traffic Light" cupcakes for my friends who were performing yesterday.

This is after putting the icing cream on, and I added cocoa powder to make it look yummier. Hahaha.

The inside. :)
I thought my parents don't like icing. So, I put icing on one cupcake. But who knows my dad loves icing! Only my mum doesn't like the icing. Oh well, I like it when it hardens. :)

Can't wait to bake again. Maybe I will add raisins the next time. ;)

2009-03-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

I BAKED RAINBOW CUPCAKES!
more like traffic light cupcakes. :)
I will post pictures later.
I am starting to love baking!

show.

2009-03-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

A Night with Eugene O'Neill.
Beyong The Horizon
Anna Christie
Long Day's Journey Into Night

Venue: NAFA Theatre Studio (Black Box)
Dates: 20th March, Friday/21st March, Saturday
Time: 8pm

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I actually hate it when time passes so fast.
Next thing I know, I will be doing my second play.
Soon, I will be in my third year.
Then, I will be trying to find a job.
How fun, I can't wait. :(

Sorry, Sorry!

2009-03-09T12:08:00.003+08:00

I didn't know the full audio of "Sorry, Sorry" would come out so quick at 10am! I thank for Youtube subscriptions! :) The most distinctive voices I hear is Ryeowook, Eunhyuk, Shiwon, Kangin, Hankyung (I think a little), Donghae, Kyuhyun (I think). :) The song is super catchy. And I love it!

The tune to "Sorry Sorry" reminds me of another korean song which I cannot put the title into my head. Enjoy! :)

I love Mediafire. :)

I love Big Bang, and Super Junior.

2009-03-08T22:20:00.004+08:00

White Day, with Big Bang? Can't wait.

I love Dae's gold shoes. Shinsang! :)

Super Junior is making their comeback "Sorry Sorry", and my fangirly days are making a comeback too. When I heard the teaser, it was on repeat for about two hours! It is that awesome, alright!!! And I am wondering what's with the double words? Don Don? Cooking Cooking? I can't wait for 13eyond The Imagination, on the 11th of March. :)

Here's their teaser for Clara. :)
Your Kang has slimmed down and is looking good!

long hair on guys.

2009-03-02T00:33:00.003+08:00

I love guys with long hair. I also hate guys with long hair. Yong is somewhere in between. I have a love and hate relationship with his hair. In the recent Strong Baby's perf with Ri, his hair is so unique that it shines under light. Oh man. Then again, only Yong can pull off such a look. I love Yong's style. He can look so pretty that I feel inferior. Also, he can looks so manly if he wants too. I love him during Lies. His bun head is so cute that I could pinch his cheeks. Or his hair messed up just nicely. That's Yong for me. :) I need more Dragon spazzing. I CAN'T WAIT FOR SUJU'S COMEBACK. Sexy Concept. How interesting!

death.

2009-02-28T23:05:00.006+08:00

I never thought that when I look into the obituaries section of the newpapers, I would see someone I know. Today, I did. Although I do not know her personally, we spoken to each other before. She was a very nice, cheerful, happy girl.

May God bless her family and friends.

what is love?

2009-02-25T23:28:00.004+08:00

Saw this video on Nat's blog which I thought is cute! :)

"Love looks like the shape of a butterfly."
"Love tastes like love."

I saw a tiny spark of hope.

2009-02-25T22:59:00.007+08:00

Today, I had enough of school, homework, people. I decided to give time to God (since today is Ash Wednesday too). So I went to the Church near my school. But the afternoon mass was still going on and I couldn't find the Adoration room. I told myself to wait until everyone leaves, then I would go into the Church. Once everyone left, I entered the Church with a slightly heavy heart. I knelt down in front of God and prayed. The more I prayed, I find myself crying harder; because I have sinned and I want to repent. Then I felt as though He forgave me and took the heaviness in my heart away. Slowly, there was a light, pure feeling filling my heart. I was at peace; this peacefulness was amazing, because it felt like He has recharged my soul with His grace.

I truly want to thank God for forgiving me and welcoming me back into His open arms today.

I was a boy.

2009-02-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

I look so boy.
Well, I hated being a girl at that time.
I miss the kayaking. :)

I baptise this meat into fish.

2009-02-23T09:35:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's homily was hilarious! Father Bosco was talking about confessions. And he mentioned that eating meat on Fridays is not a sin (me and my "God-will-never-forgive-you-if-you-eat-meat-on-Fridays"). It is actually more of a penance. So, no sin committing if we eat meat on Fridays. He also talked about once he was at a wedding anniversary celebration. It was on a Friday, and the couple ordered meat dishes. Suddenly, it became quiet. Everyone was waiting for Father Bosco's reaction; see whether if he eats the meat or not. At that point of time Father Bosco was slight upset because there were some people who were talking about the couple for ordering meat when they knew it was a Friday. Then Father Bosco took Holy water and started blessing the food and the people, then he exclaimed, "I baptise this meat into fish." And the way he expressed it, WAH... I cannot stop laughing. But come to think of it, actually it is quite true, which is a bigger sin? Eating meat on Fridays (in the first place, it is not a sin) or wasting food? Of course, wasting food is a sin. :)

So, I am sorry to my dear friends whom I kept reminding, "God will never forgive you if you eat meat on Fridays." :)

Sweet.

2009-02-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

I saw these videos on Xinlian's blog. The little boy reminds me of little Bong. SO ADORABLE! He can break dance so well.

Even his younger brother is cute!

There is a reason for loving Jung Eui Chul.
Watch Boys Over Flowers then you know why. Another reason, because he looks like Kyuhyun! ;) Too much BOF-ness.

I WANT TO WATCH WEDDING GAME.

I love Friday, the sixth.

2009-02-09T00:49:00.003+08:00

The exco 0506 were at family day on Friday, the sixth. It made me so happy, because it had been a long time since everyone gathered together. Later in the night, Pres, Secretary and HOS were snooping around the council room for our precious excos' files. Everything was still intact. :)

Oh I miss Peicai.
I always feel at home when I go back. :)

2009-02-04T22:22:00.003+08:00

Am I too demanding?
Am I too detailed?
Sometimes I just don't understand why people don't understand.

Oh wells, I want to watch Wedding Game!
Anybody?

A short update.

2009-01-27T11:13:00.003+08:00

A quote from Mother Teresa which applies to how I feel right now.
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much."

Anyways, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Reunion Dinner was on Sunday. All I can say is I miss the reunion dinners in Sengkang/Bukit Merah. This year's dinner was by Singapore Zoo. To me, the food was slightly better than the previous years. ;D OH! And because it is from Singapore Zoo, we had toys!

Just to let you know if you are at any 10-cost dinners and they serve lobster... and they have a lobster head there for decoration, REMEMBER TO BREAK OFF ALL THE LEGS OF THE LOBSTER!!!

You see, when we had the cold lobster, May Yue wondered if there is meat in the head. When we lift it up, there was! Then my brother went to break off one of the legs. We thought there was no meat because he hide the big fleshy piece of meat and threw the shell on the table. But suddenly, he just flashed the big fleshy piece of meat in front of us. I was like "WOAH!! I also want!" Lesson learnt, next time break the legs of the lobster for more. :D

Cousins. ;D

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas, Everyone!
I'll update when I'm less sleepy.
Two thick slices of beef is no joke.

Results

2008-12-19T12:37:00.003+08:00

When I was in secondary school, I didn't care if I got lousy results.
It is only until the final year, I was serious about studying into getting good grades for the certificate that only brings me to the next level of studies.

When I am in NAFA, things change, I cared if I get shitty results.
And I thought of plenty reasons why I get such shitty results. In the end, the reason became me. If I worked harder, I would have done better. It is no longer "fine, I will chiong at my final year". Now, it is "I must chiong every year. If I don't, I can't catch up. I can't afford to do that."

Anyways, I am glad that there are improvements in two modules that I have worked very hard for. I may not be an all "A" student, but I strive to do the best for what I love. But there are modules that let me down. I thought I worked very hard for them, but in the end, it didn't seem that I did worked hard for it. It feels as though my hard work is for nothing. Then again, maybe I did worked hard, but it is not hard enough.

But I still thank God for blessing me with these grades.
I will work even harder next semester and the semesters to come. ;D
Like what Miss Ming always says, "Never say die." :)

우리 결혼했어요!

2008-12-17T08:24:00.002+08:00

Kangin is getting married!
Can't wait for this Sunday.
I saw this comment,
"I wish Hankyung was the husband, he can cook beijing fried rice!"
HAHAHA!

2008-12-11T00:28:00.001+08:00

all i can say is, "health is wealth".

peektures.

2008-12-04T23:32:00.005+08:00

I love this cosy corner of the kitchen.
Liyun & me enjoying the Soju shots.

Me playing her sanxian!

I'm starting to enjoy the joy of having people staying over. :D
This holidays, I am going to learn to love, forgive, and enjoy.
God gave me a heart to love. God gave me a chance to forgive and forget. God gave me a life to enjoy. I should live in every moment and not worry about what comes ahead, because I know He will be there with me in every second of my life. The only thing that makes me happy is being with my family and my friends. They always ensure me that they are always there. Always there. :)

blogger gives me fear.

2008-11-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

I remember I used to be able to write plenty of nasty stuff about people I disliked. Now, I can't bear to write. The fear of being judged as someone self-centered (which I think I already am), irritating bitch and whatever you can name. Perhaps I know there are people reading this shit, that's why I save drafts more than I publish them. I would prefer them kept and not known.

Oh, there are so many things going through my head. And all it concludes is that I am a selfish bitch who thinks of herself only. Maybe I have chose to be invisible. So, that would explain everything. I have learnt that if I am invisible, life would be easier. No, it was never easy. Never once easy. I feel as though history has repeated itself. I just needed to understand. That's all.

But I never learnt the right way. I always go wrong.

current obsession. ;D

2008-11-08T11:55:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for these two weeks to be over as soon as possible. Well, for this semester, I do not have the confidence that I will do well, mainly because half the modules are theory which I am weaker in.

Anyways, I have been crazy over these songs!

Number 1!

Sunset Glow!

Plain White T's 1,2,3,4.
A very cheesy and cute song. :D
Good for lovebirds.

There's only 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you. I love you~

HIGHLIGHT OF THIS YEAR.

2008-11-04T23:38:00.004+08:00

I'm glad that I went for this year's Kpop Concert. Even without Super Junior or Big Bang, I still enjoyed myself very much. I found new loves along the way as I listened to the music. I fell in love with Andy (super crazy over him), Kim Jong Wook (another pretty boy!), 2PM (one of the boys. i think the one who spoke english), U-Kiss, V.O.S (for their voice).

OH MY. Anseobang & Jongwook can't get out of my head. Those cuties. I don't fancy U-Kiss, because I am their noonas. Too old for them. I need a man, nam ja! And WONDERGIRLS ARE HOT. SUPER DUPER HOT. I SO WANT THEIR BODS. :D SEXY. AND I LOVE YOOBIN'S RAPPING VOICE. SEXY. Not that I have turned lesbian for them, but they are definitely woo!

PICTURES :)
Taken from the place where we were sitting at. The view is not bad. Enjoyable. :D

Closer view of the stage. :)

THE HOST, ANSEOBANG! :D

Judging from their costumes, I think this is 2PM.

U-KISS! :)

I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU.

ANSEOBANG DANCING LOVE SONG! :D

I was trying to take a picture of him and his 'heart'. But failed.
I was wondering if Solbi would appear as a guest! Haha. Or Big Bang with Wonder Girls, Tell Me.

ANOTHER EYE CANDY.
Kim Jong Wook.
Ballad Singer. Nice voice.
And now he reminds of Baek Sung Hyun.

A clearer picture of Kim Jong Wook with Liyun's headphones.
Actually not much of a difference. Haha.

I remember Andy or the Leader in Jewelry asked the Singapore host (whom I think is a DJ in one of the chinese radio stations) which group she likes. She always would say, "Shinhwa, Jewelry" first. Then, the Leader in Jewelry asked her, "In Shinhwa, who do you like?" She replied "Andy"! How cute. Well, the Singapore host knows about Big Bang & DBSK too! :D

ANSEOBANG, SARANG HAE. :)

I can't wait for next year, that's if they have it again.

NAT, BEN, GEN, I'M SORRY FOR NOT COMING TODAY. BUT KPOP CONCERT IS AT THE TOP OF MY LIST IF I WERE TO PRIORITISE. :D

i feel so alone.

2008-10-29T20:04:00.003+08:00

i just need a friend to listen.
i need a hug.
i'm tired.

i miss those i loved very much.

뽀뽀하고 싶소~

2008-10-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

"Alphabet, Aladdin, Alfredo, Alpacino"
I can imagine if Eeteuk has daughters, he would name them after the Disney Princesses.
If not, the whole of the Alphabet system from A to Z.

The tiles are almost done.
I can't wait for the end product. Exciting~

day one of renovating.

2008-10-21T07:57:00.004+08:00

I am going to start writing entries about the revonation of my kitchen and toilets!
Actually this entry is mainly for my brother to see what's happening in Singapore.

My family practically lives in two rooms now, which is my brother's and my room. My room is the storeroom, while my brother's room is the dining room, living room, bedroom. The best thing about this whole experience is that I get to switch on air-con everyday, because it gets stuffy! =D

The living quarters!
MY ROOM!

MY BROTHER'S ROOM!

The "BEFORE" pictures.
Master Bedroom Toilet

Common Toilet

Kitchen Toilet

Kitchen

Balcony

Revonations started yesterday. Well, it was more of knocking of the cupboards and tiles away. They have three days to knock off the kitchen and (I think) the main toilet. The masterbedroom toilet is the last one to be knocked off, because we need somewhere to bathe and wash up. =)

When I came home yesterday, I was greeted by this!

I walked in further to find more things!

Excuse my dad. You can see the balcony.
And suddenly, we all loved the open concept. Haha.

Saying Goodbye to all the kitchen cupboards!

Saying Hello to the ugly pipesa!

This was the drill which drilled all the tiles away.

I couldn't take a lot of pictures of the kitchen because there weren't much space for me to move about. Well, maybe later today I will take pictures of the kitchen!

Wow! They really start work on 9! AT THE DOT! Off the school now!

oh i forgot.

2008-10-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday, Donghae!
Stay fishy alright.
And I like the new hair cut. Less messy. =D
Go tell Shiwon that he needs that cut too.

my love for you will never die.

2008-10-17T07:14:00.004+08:00

all i wish now is to see all 13 to stand together
on one stage and sing for us, E.L.F.
it's been a long time.
i want life to get better.
i wish that i can take lesser modules.
Those deadlines & [ASS]ignments.

younger one.

2008-10-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

I enjoy being the youngest.
I am always protected by the males in the family.
=)

I enjoy being Lester's sister or Ah Ho's daughter. =D

SJM is love.

2008-09-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU, HAE. VERY VERY VERY MUCH. OMG.
YOU ARE STILL SO CUTE EVEN IF YOU TRY TO BE MACHO. OMG.
I LOVE THE LOOK KYU IS GIVING. HAHAHA.

I REMEMBER LIYUN TOLD ME SHE LOOKS DAI DAI IN ONE OF HER PICTURES.
Look at HAE. He is so dai. He looks like a fish.

HANKYUNG IS JEALOUS.
Gosh, I miss Hankyung in Korea. Hankyung in Korea is so affectionate with Heechul. I miss all that Hanchul action.

This picture seriously cracked me up.

There is always something about Heenim that makes me go wild over when he is with Geng. =)

HAEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

It has been a long time since I spazzed.
Give me a break.

F1!!!

2008-09-28T22:20:00.004+08:00

I never thought F1 could be so fun to watch, although I fell asleep at the last part. Of all timings, I fell asleep at the last part! Well, some of you may think F1 is just seeing the cars zooming past your screen. It was for me in the beginning, because I did not understand the game. Slowly, I caught on!

Now, I can't wait for the next race. I want Hamilton to beat Alonso's ass! That arrogant fart. More like, I want anyone to beat Alonso's ass. Pft.

My mum says that I have a orh-sim (black heart). Like my brother, I want to see the car crash and yet I don't want them to get injured! That makes the show exciting! Car crash - looking out whether the driver is okay - driver is okay! - driver disqualified. Hahaha!

ASSIGNMENT FOR TV & FILM: I still have no idea how many cameras they have. They already have two on each car. 32 cameras for the race. I think a quite number for the helicopters. I actually cannot be bothered.

NEXT YEAR, F1!
I AM COMING TO WATCH YOU ZOOM ZOOMM ZOOMMM!

edited: ATM = Always Take Money.
My dad and I had to agree on it.

NEXT PLAY.

2008-09-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

I think I will enjoy myself in acting as MISS JULIE and the NURSE (who randomly appears in almost all the scenes of THE FATHER). Life is starting to rock, when you stop fearing and start to take a step forward each time. I certainly can't wait for SOLO FLIGHT. Well, it may be too early to be said. I am starting to enjoy being on stage. =) Off to Faedra.

crazy thoughts.

2008-09-22T00:01:00.004+08:00

i am in love with sexy jawlines and nicely built of the back of the neck to the shoulders.
so far, alex (from clazziquai) has the best jawline,
and jiyong's back neck to shoulders is the closest to the perfect i have in mind.
but that is TWO of the MANY things i want in a guy.

hahahha!
Liyun, I think I am worse than Kangin and his toes.

oh ya, i am obsessed with hyunjoong and his guitar performance.
and ss501 reminds me of suju.
especially one of the guys is similar to sungmin!
how cute!

expect the unexpected.

2008-09-19T01:15:00.003+08:00

stress over presentation and tmr's play.
that explains the sensitive behaviour. =)
in my dreams, kwon ji yong, hankyung & lee donghae are coming to watch my play.
i am mrs putnam, ann putnam.

UNEXPECTED news, clara, you nehneh, go check your facebook inbox. i messaged you! please message me back and tell me if it is not true. -.-

brilliant work.

2008-09-17T09:42:00.002+08:00

for a moment, i thought it was a cut from a show. wow.
people need to come up with more of such ideas!

nothing-ness.

2008-09-15T23:06:00.003+08:00

here i am typing into this void space of emptiness. simply because i am so sick of researching and reading on phaedra. i still have my drawings to draw. plus, i haven't gotten any clothes for my puppet yet. acting performance/showcase/whatever-you-call-it is in freaking few days time. my lines are down at my fingertips, but my throat is failing me. even before i had the swollen throat, i had been faithfully drinking plentiful of water. except for this one time where i had a fever and recovered almost instantly. only the night's rest heals my throat, and allows me to speak freely tomorrow. you know, i feel like flying over to aussie now, say 'hi' to my smelly brother and best friend, then come back to horrid singapore which is already giving the fears of doing a one man show for my next year's exam. yes. one man show. yay. maybe i could steal a few ideas of hakim, sexaye chicken from teckwhye when he did his one man show. oh my god, i miss boobsie and gingko. i miss eating prata and laughing my ass off with them. aw. anyways, i am going kayaking this wednesday! woo. yay-ness. i get to roast my skin under the sun with my good friend, nat. =) that reminds me of kayaking expendition. melissa tan and me were singing/screaming/kayaking when we were rowing the boat to our next destination. i remember not fearing of the high waters, the strong current that keeps on pulling the boat back, the worry that we had when yauleong disappeared with our instructor, the water snake which scared rafhana, and capsizing like nobody's business. i wish we kayak around singapore, rather than 1/4. at least, we had fun. i think, my arm muscles has become fats. and i think i will capsize my boat on wednesday. woo. fun shit. i miss kayaking. very very much. =) did i mention that i am crazy over 'we got married', a variety show in korea? hyunjoong, alex, andy combined makes the best husband ever. andy for his housewife skills, alex for his romantic tactics, hyunjoong for being eccentric = best husband ever. well, at least for me. oh my god. liyun just showed me a half naked hankyung! woo. sexy! but super skinny! jealous. i need suju and big bang now. jiyong ah! hankyung ah! donghae ah! where are you?

come and watch.

2008-09-15T09:20:00.003+08:00

An Evening With Arthur Miller
Death of a Salesman
A View From The Bridge
The Crucible

19th/20th September 2008, 8pm
NAFA Theatre Studio
Free Admission

korkor.

2008-09-12T00:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dear brother in Australia! =)
Although I find you irritating (and vice versa),
I am still glad that you are my brother! =D

Kor, did mummy and daddy tell you that they missed your birthday '1209' in 4D on Wednesday? It came out in one of the first three prizes leh! Wasted! If not, you will have a bigger angbao. (-.-) I am beginning to sound like a 4D-kia.

OMG.

2008-09-10T08:57:00.003+08:00

I has been a long time since I had a Suju dream to make me happy for the day.
And last night, I dreamt of Supy. It was hilarious.

I dreamt of this man!

It started with Clara calling me to ask me if I want to go Korea and catch Mnet Countdown with her. I gave a definite 'yes'! We went there by plane, and it only took an hour for us to reach Korea. When we were at the studio (which felt as though I was in Expo for Thomas & Friends), Eunhyuk came out in a weird dress rapping. Then, Supy came out singing at another stage, Eunhyuk had to run to that stage to join them! They did PAJAMA PARTY dance with COOKING COOKING music. Seriously, (-_-'). But I enjoyed myself. There was this part where Supy will go down to the audience and give flowers. Being fangirls, of course we want them to give us. We saw Kangin running all over! He saw me, he stopped, "Melissa!" My face was (O.O), "How did he know my name?" He continued, "You are here! The last time I saw you was at XX... ...Here, have the flowers!" (When he spoke, I was not sure, because it seems to be in Korean and sounded like mumbling. Also, there wasn't any subtitles in my dreams.) He ran off to perform his last bit. I was still in a dazed when I took the flowers. Clara kept rolling her eyes to show that she cannot be bothered (when I actually know she cares, because Kangin is her favourite). Then, when the performance ended, we went off. We walked around the Expo look-a-like studio, but ended up getting lost and walking in circles. A kind old man who I thought he was a cheeko-pek helped us out. When we reached the bus stop, I saw bus numbers like, '853', '151'. I told Clara that we should just walk to the us interchange and take a bus home. Then, I woke up.

I think the funny thing was the bus part, machiam we went to Korea by bus.
Woo. It has been a long time.
I dreamt of Big Bang recently too, but not very clear. But it involves Jiyong and Seungri!

Oh ya, another dream. I dreamt of Rosy's locker.
I opened her locker and saw food everywhere. I asked her if I could eat two cups of instant noodles? She was fine with it, then we went to make the instant noodles. I spilled the sauce all over my white shirt. And I woke up.

Maybe I am too stressed up, that's why I am dreaming of these weird things! =D

I need to spazz more to release my stress. X)

all the small things.

2008-09-08T23:16:00.005+08:00

I could never felt so blessed before.
That's why I am jumping on clouds.

I know I have a weird taste for Korean music.

eye candy.

2008-09-07T00:09:00.005+08:00

My latest eye candy is someone who looks very much like Brian! =) He is the taller, skinnier, more boyish version of Brian. When I first saw him, the first thing came to my mind was, "He looks very familiar! OH! He looks like Brian Joo!" Aww. I was 'washing my eyes' for the past few days. How fun! Too bad, the play has ended. No more 'eye washing'.

I need to wash my eyes more often!

EDITED, 7/9: After watching this video, I realised my eye candy has the looks of Se7en and Brian combined! Se7en is weird. Taking a video of himself while bathing. Making all the fangirls happy. Haha. Hyori is his style! But sad to say, Hyori likes Big Bang, your dongsaengs! =D

my funny valentine.

2008-09-01T22:09:00.005+08:00

My funny valentine,
Sweet comic Valentine,
You make me smile with my heart.
Your looks are laughable,
Unphotographable,
Yet you're my favourite work of art.
Is your figure less than Greek;
Is your mouth a little weak,
when you open it to speak
are you smart?
But don't change a hair for me,
Not if you care for me,
Stay, little Valentine, stay!
Each day is Valentine's day.

***

As time passes, people change.
I wonder if people still loved me,
because I still loved them.
I wonder if people missed me,
because I missed them.

I wonder, and wonder, and keep on wondering.

saranghae!

2008-08-30T22:56:00.003+08:00

i'm on cloud nine.
:)

15 games of bowling today. Average 120. At least, I could maintain there. Sometime 140, sometimes 110, sometimes 100. The worst game was 90 plus. Anyways, I told dad if I could use korkor's old bowling ball. Oh ya, one small achievement today, I managed to crash all ten pins with a bang! I always loved the sound when my dad strikes. And, I managed to achieved that today. :)

Yes, I am serious about bowling and Spanish dancing.
Bowling is all in the mind.

happy sung-saeng-nim day!

2008-08-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

Although DELL made my day unhappy, I wish that I WAS ABLE TO GO BACK TO PEICAI. Stupid DELL, not for my laptop (and superbang), I would have gone back to Peicai straight after finishing school. PEICAI was a very important part of my life. Endless memories were created. Feelings were nutured. True friendships were found. I am glad that I was in Peicai.

One of the reasons why I didn't go, because Clara is not around to go crazy with me, or to ignore me as I dance my way around school. Aw. I miss the celebration too. Then again, Spanish dance class & Western Theatre History class are more important. I learnt a new step today. It is so difficult to switch to my left feet. Not used to it. Also, I NEED TO PRACTICE ALL THE DANCE STEPS.

Oh ya, Happy Teacher's Day to Miss Nai, Miss Ming, Miss Kodi, Miss Shirley Kang, and my NAFA lecturers. =)

Spanish Dancing makes me feel sexy.

i hate dell.

2008-08-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

WARNING: CUSS WORDS.
Never in my life I felt I have wasted 5 precious hours of my life waiting for someone to come and repair my laptop. In 5 hours, I CAN CATCH UP ON MY SUPERBANG THREADS which are moving rapidly.

DELL has the worst customer service ever, or they have IT technicians who only know how to fix certain problems. I am not mad with the guy who came and repair my laptop and STILL CANNOT find the root of the problem. I am mad at the screwed-up system that DELL has.

Firstly, they only work from 9am to 6pm, Mondays to Fridays. OKAY, that is a -1 point.

Secondly, having the IT technician to come down to my school twice and still cannot find the root of the problem. -5 + -1 = -6.

Third, THE IT TECHNICIANS DO NOT FUCKING COME ON TIME.

I got the slot 5.30pm - 7pm on Wednesday. I would think that they would come about 6pm, because of maybe the previous on-site repair may need a little more time. THE GUY CAME at 7.30pm.

Today, the slot time given to me was 3.30pm to 5pm. The guy called at 5pm saying he will be an hour late. OKAY. I waited until 7pm, then he called and said he was on his way. What kind of service is this? I got fed up and told him if there is any place where I can send my laptop in for repair. BECAUSE IT IS SO IRRITATING WHEN MY LAPTOP CANNOT BE REPAIRED.

Even when my computer crashed, I didn't have to wait so long for it to be repaired. I just ask my cousin, and send my computer over. AND within a week, I can get my computer back! I foresee my laptop will still be screwed up after two weeks.

UGH. I HATE DELL CUSTOMERS SERVICE.

unseen photos.

2008-08-23T19:44:00.007+08:00

Pictures Overloaded.
This is the picture which inspire me to name my blog url as 'smack-your-ass'.

Back in 2006, Liyun and me were having sushi at Bugis.
And Bugis was the most central place for us to meet up. =)

Happy Family!

Liyun, you look so young here! =D

My brother inspired me to shave my head.

Two walking ang baos. =D

I actually enjoyed this Mother's Day lunch more than my mother.
Because I chose the place. Haha.

My auntie's retro sun-glasses!

We were bored...

So, we decided to goof around with Liyun's webcam!

The classic "OH-MO-NA" by Wonder Girls!

My grandma's birthday.
Everyone was shy to stand beside my grandma.
So, I had to stand there, in order for the kids not to be shy.

Trio.

This is my very cool auntie who loves k-drama!
And we call her Naughty Gugu!

Creammmmmy!

Liyun can't stand my nonsense.

KWON JIYONG IS MINE! Haha!

Liyun trying to hide her pimples, while I showed mine.

Liyun, na.. miss nuh...
My knowledge for the Korean Language never seem to be improving. Haha! I want to hang out with you, Mayyue and Naughty Gugu soon. And GO TO GUGU'S HOUSE NEXT WEEK, OKAY? GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU! XD

I MISS SMELLY PANTART. To think that in Hokkien, "cousins" are called "kar-zhng", which also has the meaning of "butt". HAHA!

big bang love.

2008-08-23T17:31:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for thursday to come. =)
weeee...

library.

2008-08-21T23:20:00.003+08:00

when two crazy monkeys are put together...
they start to fool around with the webcam.

we love shakespeare's macbeth very much!

school librarians have pms everyday.

hahaha!

2008-08-21T11:57:00.001+08:00

i saw this at soompi.
it made me laugh.

flamenco.

2008-08-20T23:14:00.003+08:00

Spanish dancing makes me feel sexy.
Although the posture which we have to have (at all times) is horribly difficult to maintain, but it makes me feel confident as a lady. As a performer, it is always good to learn new skills to build up my portfolio. =)

Off to practice my "pasada".

happy yong day.

2008-08-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

happy 20th birthday, jing yo! =)

i am obsessed with ten pins and a 10 pound ball.

distance.
it is very easy to drift and find new interests.
it is difficult to not drift and find new interests.
i am experiencing the same situation once more.
maybe it is just me and my insecurities.

i feel better to be alone these days.

haru haru.
i miss my best friends.
i miss my brother.
i miss myself.

a ear who is willingly to listen.

first love.

2008-08-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

who can ever forget their first love?
i certainly can't forget my first love.

they captured my heart tightly,
when the car accident and chances of adding new members happened.

i learnt many things from them.
from the leader with a big heart to love 12+ELF who tried to do his best in anything.

i would say my first love would be donghae, than hankyung.
my love for hankyung came after i watched love letter episodes.
donghae came first because he is super cute in full house.

and i will always love the old men in the group.
eeteuk, for being special.
heechul, for his eccentric self.
hankyung, for his heart of gold.

that explains why my first love will never be forgotten.
although i have been into big bang recently, there is still a special place in my heart where it fits all 13 of them. for many reasons, i am glad that liyun introduced me to korean music.

now, there is a place where i feel very much belonged. =)

bowling.

2008-08-15T22:15:00.004+08:00

I told my parents that I want to be a national bowler. I found my love back for this sport once more. I love the feeling when I roll the 11-pound ball down the lane, and it hits all the ten pins down. It gives me a sense of accomplishment.

Bowling (surprisingly) calms me down, although sometimes there are times where I get frustrated because I want to strike. But I would always remember what my dad said, "Don't think of trying to strike the whole time. Just relax and play." This is a sport I would say that I have slowly grown to love as I grew up. But sadly, I lost interest in it as I grew older. If only Peicai had bowling as a CCA, I would have taken it up. =)

Why the suddent thought of wanting to be a bowler? Because last week, I went bowling with my dad. Both of us had a great time stretching our muscles. I have been trying not to drop my ball as I bowl. Because I want to achieve that 'sound' when there is a 'strike'. Also, bowling makes me a happy girl.

I want to roll the ball down the lane and make an impact to the pins. =)

trust who?

2008-08-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

A secret is better to be kept.
I have been lying to myself lately.
My feelings have been going up and down.
I think I need another break through.

heart beat.

2008-08-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

i shed black tears,
you wiped them away.
i told a lie,
you covered up for me.
i slit my wrists,
you told me that i was stupid.
i bit my fingers,
you bandaged them for me.
i screamed, 'i hate you',
you screamed back, 'i love you'.
i hid in my cupboard crying,
you went inside too and hugged me.
i ran away from home,
you went around looking for me.

my lifeless heart started beating again.

ugh. i should stop my nonsense soon.

jingyo <3

2008-08-14T01:54:00.003+08:00

Today was the day I truly felt that my mask of pretence was down. I let my hair down and be myself like how I would with my best friends. My heart simply forgot my inhibitions and just freed itself. I enjoyed being me today. I wonder if I can still keep up with the real me. If the real world wants to see the real me.

Thanks Jingyo for telling me that it is okay to be psycho, as long as you have a bunch of friends who loves you for that.

OH MY FRIEND!

OH MY FRIEND!

2008-08-13T23:58:00.001+08:00

Sound kinda rockish. My second favourite song in Stand Up Album!
MY JI IS A PSYCHO! =) BAE IS SO YUMMY HERE! AND RI'S HEAD BANG! wah lao. comical. they need head banging lessons from 'B'.

i love their concept of this mv. like, although we have different lives, but for friends you would do anything just to hang out with this group of friends that you never get sick of! =D

i love yong yong!
my psycho boy.

last one.

2008-08-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

생일첰하 합니다,
생일첰하 합니다,
사랑하는 CLARA-씨,
생일첰하 합니다!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CLARA AGUSTINE DIVINA pradJWALITA! =D

we have been boobies (best friends) since sec 1 registration! i still remember okay! because we were carrying the heavy boards back up. so we were supporting each other with useless cheers. man, those were the good old days where we get screwed by deadlines and lectures. i have been missing you so much ever since you went to PERTH to study. hurry come home, then we will have endless outings with ben, nat and gen! oh ya, and prata with ging, that bugger! =)

oh ya, because i cannot give you your present now.
here's kangin, kim young woon for you. =)

day by day.

2008-08-12T22:40:00.001+08:00

black tears slowly stained on my pale cheeks.
i couldn't stop crying.
because you told me to cry it all out.

i did.

it has been a long time since i did that.
i screamed. i shouted. i bawled.
all to make me feel better.
i did feel better.
my heaviness in my heart was lifted up.

you told me that crying was fine.
crying shows how you are feeling.

that was how i felt.
angry with myself.
frustrated with myself.
disappointed with myself.

now, i just want to make things right.
i'm sorry.

i shed black tears.

2008-08-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

my love.
you, bae, dae, top and ri have made everyone proud of your comeback.
i have shed black tears for you,
because i am happy.
i stopped slitting my wrists,
because you made me happy.

fuck. i need to stop it.

oh girl, i cry cry.

2008-08-10T13:48:00.000+08:00

i bit my fingers till it bled blue.
i cried till my tears became black.
my love for you cannot be removed like a tattoo.
i spend long nights by myself thinking of us.

you left my heart cold.
but i'll live on with the memories.
just leave with ease.
because i have no regrets loving you.

day by day,
i pray.

Day by Day...

2008-08-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

Big Bang's Haru Haru MV

KWON LEADER MADE ME CRY.
You hopeless fool. Stop writing songs like these to make your fans cry.

still.

2008-08-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

i should not have watched "we got married".
now, i am crazy over hyunjoong/alex/andy. <3

off to 'B' to the 'I' to the 'G' 'B' to the 'A' 'N' 'G'. we hooked our pinkies.
we made a promise.

god loves you and me.

2008-08-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

First, it is Jungsoo. Now, it is Jiyong. What's with emo and leaders?
Grr. Jiyong, please stop writing damn sad songs, okay?!

I am lacking of Spiritual life.

I have been thinking of what the new parish priest, Fr. John told us. He talked about his life story. He said many things, but one of the few things I remembered clearly was that God is always there with us, even at the lowest. Another was about persevering in whatever we want to achieve. Even if we fail, it is okay. We can always try and try until we succeed.

I think what I need now is to find the peace in my heart and carry it with me in this world of nothing-ness.

walk, walk, walk.

2008-08-06T20:31:00.001+08:00

i went crazy today.
from school, i walked to bras pasah complex. after that, i walked to raffles city to check out some shop. then, i walked down to the grand cathay to check out the sushi restaurant. next destination was sakae sushi at dhoby ghaut. before walking down to far east plaza to catch a bus home!
yay. i am officially a cuckoo.

spazzing.

2008-08-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

ignore this post.
melissa is getting crazier by the minute, because of suju and bigbang.

maa interview.

What about the younger ones then? Donghae, Sungmin and Kyuhyun. Do they get bullied all the time?
Leeteuk: Yes. It's mostly what they're there for! [Laughs]

You've been on the tour the past couple of months for the Super Show. Why isn't Singapore one of your stops?
Leeteuk: Well yeah, we've actually been going to a lot of other places in Asia. We did the first show in Thailand, and we're planning nine more stops. We'd actually have loved to make a stop at Singapore. Why haven't you called us?!

Ahhh I see. Our bad. Don't worry. I'll be sure to speak to my boss about it.
Super Junior: YEAH!!!

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suju, your fans in singapore are waiting for you patiently to come. =D
oh wells, i have made plans to go malaysia (with my parents).

congrats to suju for winning most favourite artist (korea) award! =)
and a happy 1000th suju day!
i miss those days where liyun and me spazz like crazy. we "scream" in our convo half the time. ahh! if only hankyung is at maa. olympics. one day, we will see 13 on stage. =)

park jung soo <3

2008-08-01T21:17:00.001+08:00

The hardest thing was...
Exactly how many members is Super Junior?
Whenever we received this question, we never answered, not even once.
Truthfully, when we were asked this, our members had a really hard time..
After collecting our thoughts, as well as those of the SM family and the fans, we had a lot of meetings. After having all those meetings, we came to a conclusion.
That is! How many members do all of you think Super Junior is? (ELF: 13~)
Super Junior is forever 13 members.
Whatever may happen in the future, how many members does Super Junior have? (ELF: 13!)
On the news and in many newspaper articles, there was a lot of talk about fandom is like this and SuJu fans buy stock and do this...
Now... Even if 10 years pass or 20 years pass, Super Junior is 13 members.

Park Jungsoo has made every ONLY13 E.L.F happy. =)
No matter what SM does to Suju, Super Junior will only be 13 in the hearts of E.L.F.

emoteuk's bug is getting into me.

2008-08-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

is this what i want to do?
for some reasons, i feel as though i am spinning in circles.
for weird reasons, i feel myself lost in the vast ocean.
then, your words came back into my mind.

i looked into your eyes and wanted answers.
you gave me one long answer.
overcome whatever comes in your way.
try your best.
be yourself.

talk is cheap.
i am still lost spinning in circles.

hurry up.

mel is just an attention seeking smelly fart.

p/s: just thinking.

handwriting analysis

2008-07-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

the statements in bold are the ones i agree with.

Melissa uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Melissa does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. (remain calm? lol. that doesnt sound like me when i was in exco.) In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Melissa will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Melissa is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Melissa doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Melissa will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. (more like giving super dumb comments) She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Melissa's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Melissa slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Melissa can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Melissa is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. (it never goes as planned most of the times) Melissa basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Melissa is sarcastic. (sarcastic? seriously, lol.) This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. (nowadays my comebacks are getting lousier) These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Something is incomplete in Melissa's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Melissa's sexual needs. (puaahahhaa! sexual! ha!)

Melissa has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Melissa has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Melissa fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Melissa has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Melissa seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Melissa seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

try.

smelly smelly one.

2008-07-27T21:04:00.001+08:00

After my brother goes back to Melbourne, Liyun comes over to stay!
Liyun doesn't want to wake up early for school, that's why she is staying over.
I bet I can't study for the whole week. =D

big feet.

2008-07-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

MELISSA'S GIGANTIC FEET IS CAUSING PROBLEMS.
I found the perfect shoes, but I was confused with Size 9 or 10. Size 10 was left with one pair. I went Chinatown, and I cannot find the shoe shop I wanted and the type of shoes I want. Argh. It is either my feet is too big or they do not have the design. Why am I the one with the trouble? Argh.

2nd Miss Kodi

2008-07-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

The fear of going to school is back. The medical certificates are telling me to take as much as possible. I decided not to run away from my fear, but face it in any way I could. Cowardly or bravely, I will face my fear.

What's my fear?

My lecturer, Claire Devine, who is another Miss Kodi, but she is a combination of Miss Kodi and Miss Ming.

She can be a fun teacher, yet a scary one. She gives hurtful comments, but meant well. She loves to pick on dreamy students. She is to willingly help if the student is willingly to help theirself. She tells you straight in the face if you suck.

I remember in Sems 1, I would cringe whenever I see her. I would feel sick and nauseous when it's her class. My heart would beat at a fast speed, whenever I enter her class. I was one of the lousiest student in class. She would pick on me all the time. She made me feel inferior in the class. She made me afraid to speak up in class.

To me, she is the Devil of Speech & Text. but to others, she is the Queen of Speech & Text. One thing about my learning style, I hate to be pressured. If I am, I would just deproved tremendously.

All the hatred of her teaching style has became fear. Now, I just hope that tomorrow's first class of Speech & Text would not be so bad as what I have experienced in Semester One.

My heart is thumping really fast now.
I wonder why.

학교 싫어요!

2008-07-21T22:54:00.003+08:00

학교 싫어요!
I don't know if I should be happy with my grouping this year. I am grouped with the two people that I absolute hate to work with, because I have worked with them and know how they work. And the way they work irks me. Bossy people. I have learnt my lesson. Stop announcing that you do not want to work with those people, if not karma hits you back. Argh.

It's only one year.
One year will be over in a flash. =)

//EDIT: Just have a friend like Kae, you will feel much much better. =)

HELLO SEXAYE!

2008-07-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

I want a boyfriend like Jiyong, Youngbae or Seungri.

I have been having weird weird weird dreams. Last night, I dreamt of the gang, Ben, Neh-neh-nael, Hakim, Gen, & my cousin, Gabriel! It was a super weird dream, too much facebooking and um, fanfics causes really weird dreams.

First day of school wasn't that bad, maybe because we only go and collect timetable and go for the workshop. Anyways, I miss my darlings at Nafa. The nonsense in everyone just makes me happier (emoteuk is getting into me real bad). I was talking to Rosy just now, and I realised what she said is very true. After MacBee Perf, I feel myself have the sudden burst of energy to do acting. Acting/Performing gives me a sense of accomplishment.

And with Hankyung's & Jiyong's wise words in mind, I will do my best for every lesson. No more late nights for me.

//EDIT: WAH LAO, FIRST IS SHUTTER SHADES. NOW IT'S WHAT-KIND-OF-SHADES IS THIS?!

argh.

2008-07-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

Lack of Sleep + VERY Intense Sunlight = A very bad headache.
Caffeine (Ah ma's Kopi-O) + Kor's Massage = Still having a very bad headache, although kor's massage did help the pain to go down a little.

The panadol is finally kicking in.

One funny thing.. despite having the throbbing headache, I still have the energy to type this entry. Hahaha. So, I need my laptop 24/7 to cure any sickness I have! =)

//It has been weeks since I went to Ah ma's house. When I saw my Ah ma today, she seems weaker and skinnier. Maybe I did not really observe her back then, but I felt that she has aged even more during the past weeks. And when she carefully looked at me today, I saw something in her eyes which I cannot put it to words. And also the way she looks at my brother. It is something I cannot put it to words. Or maybe, I just missed her too much.

Oh dear, what's wrong with me?
Eeteuk's emo bug has bitten me.

argh.

2008-07-18T22:07:00.006+08:00

나...... HATE 학교!!!
they changed the effin' system again. i am going to have to split classes again. omg. and i have to effin' go through a stupid audition workshop. omg. matt jasper is coming back. okay. i hope i get him in sems two. argh. i still hate the system. i feel like punching the new head's head.

//EDIT: Happy thoughts,
Supy turned emo.
Eyeliner-Teuk is hot! So is 너구리! =DD

Food.

2008-07-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

If you drop by my brother's girlfriend's (Xinlian) blog, it is always filled with addresses of places which sells yummy food. It makes your stomach hungry and your mouth water, just by looking at the pictures. Oops, I have the sudden cravings for prawn mee at Kallang. Anyways, today, I had steak which is of hotel standards or even better in my opinion. It is even better than Jack's Place. Since Liyun happened to be in the vicinity, my parents asked her to join us for this yummy food binge.

Side dishes,
Salad.
Good for those who wants to eat healthy and delicious food.

Mushrooms with bacon and garlic bits.
I am a fan of black mushrooms, so I love this hell lots! If it is topped with melted cheese, I think it would be heaven!

Main dish,
The steak!
Liyun said, "When I cut the meat, it feels tender." When I put the small piece of beef into my mouth, it melts instantly. It is so tender, even if it is at well-done. My parents prefer their steak to be well-done, like Naughty Gugu, they do not like to eat steak with the blood oozing out. So, I decided to try theirs. They taste almost as yummy as mine, medium rare. And I guarantee you, once you eat such a yummy steak, you would find Jack's Place or any other restaurant's steak not comparable with this.

But sadly, this steak is available to family members and friends of my brother and his girlfriend, Xinlian! If you want to eat, wait another few years if they have plans to open cafe! =D

sorry, don't have picture of them together.

I realise that I am the odd one out in the family.
I HATE TO COOK!
I just love to eat. =D

Well, today is also a day where I did some catching up with Liyun. I miss her loads, although I see her online often. =DDD She was supposed to be studying, but we were watching videos, camwhoring with our pimply face, and listening to our classic korean songs! WHY BABY WHY! =D

//EDIT: HAEMIN ♥

P/S: The dogs are super cute.
Ari, Bada, Mio. ♥